“I’m a paradox. I want to be happy, but I think of things that make me sad. I’m lazy, yet I’m ambitious. I don’t like myself, but I also love who I am. I say I don’t care, but I really do. I crave attention, but reject it when it comes my way. I’m a conflicted contradiction. If I can’t figure myself out, there’s no way anyone else has.”—Unknown (via cleamour)
The problem with the 50th ret-conning isn’t that the Doctor’s emotional integrity re: his post-Time War angst disappears. Obviously, he really believes he sacrificed Gallifrey, believes all those people burned, etc. He’ll still feel really, really bad about it.
The problems are that:
A) OUR response as the audience to the first seven seasons of NuWho has been compromised because WE know that it’s all a lie. The emotional resonance of those scenes is irrevocably altered because instead of feeling the weight of that choice and empathizing with and/or shuddering at the Doctor’s actions, we become sympathetic — the poor dear just doesn’t know the truth. Don’t worry, though, he’ll find out in time that it was all a lie, the wee lamb.
B) It has fundamentally changed the nature of the Doctor’s character. Before he was actually capable of causing that much destruction. Now he is not. That detracts hugely from the character because it erases one of his flaws — that in the right (wrong) circumstances, the Doctor could be terrible, fearsome; he has the capacity for that inside him. That he chooses to be otherwise, as much as he is able, is what makes him heroic.
Think about the conversation in Boom Town between the Doctor and Margaret the Slitheen. He has her number, absolutely understands her motivation, calls her on all her bullshit, and what does she say? ”Only a killer would know that.” The truth of that moment was brilliant, powerful, and a little disturbing — we are meant to fear him a little because of it. Now we know we don’t need to, we never need to, because the Doctor?
shout out to all my followers struggling with their eating during the holidays, to everybody with unsupportive families, to everybody feeling weak, to everybody wanting to lock themselves in their room all night, to everybody anxious and panicked and feeling guilty while the people around them are enjoying themselves; you’re all so important to me and I hope this holiday season you can remember that you’re human and deserving of love no matter what
So we’ve been getting a lot of messages about The Day of the Doctor and I finally got around to watching it yesterday. I found a lot of posts about it that I completely agree with and they’re in the queue, but I’m going to see if I can put my thoughts on the episode into a coherent essay.
First off, the things I did like. I liked the pace of the episode. For a lot of Moffat’s episodes and the episodes in season 7, they were often fast paced and sloppy with things crammed in that it was easy to miss just one detail that would’ve tied everything together. The extra half an hour made it possible for them to slow down and make most of everything coherent and included. I also really enjoyed the dynamic between David Tennant and Matt Smith and they both worked really well together with John Hurt. I loved the character of Kate Stewart and I really like it when competent women are in seats of power.